Update city

What have I been up to this past week? Umm, pas grand-chose really. I always feel like I want to update only when I have big news or manage to squeeze something slightly humorous out of my you-know-where. But, I guess I could go ahead and fill you in anyways even if it means you might fall asleep whilst reading. Tant pis! Well, first this week has been a whole messa stuff all over the appart because Roomie#1 is leaving next weekend. There have been boxes, bags and bordel, basically. The majority of the stuff in the apartment is hers, including the frigo, machine a laver, the kitchen table, the dining room table and 4 chairs. Oh, did I also forget to mention all the pots&pans, silverware, utensils, tupperware and the broom, mop and vacuum? Yep, all that too. I luckily managed to snag a free couch and 4 free chairs to replace what she'll be taking with her, but the other stuff, ben ca va etre chaud. Basically, Roomie#2 is gonna buy a fridge that he'll take with him when he eventually moves out and for the other stuff we were hoping to find a new roomie(no news there either, le casting nouveau coloc is on hold until I get back) who has meubles and stuff for the kitchen. If not, I guess it'll mean a few trips to the Trocante to buy some new old stuff and Carrefour to get some cheap kitchen stuff. It's kind of nice I'm leaving this Tuesday for vaca so I don't have to stress over this stuff and R#2 can demmerde considering I've already bought a good bit of (cheap) stuff to cover our a$$es in the kitchen as well as managed to snag the free couch and chairs.

Like I mentioned, I'm leaving next Tuesday evening and heading to Marseille, Avignon, Nimes and Bordeaux and I'll be back in Rennes on Wednesday aka don't be surprised if I don't post again for a while. I'm super excited to get away as this will be my first real vaca since last April. Plus, all the places I'm going I've never been before and I'll be having a blast with all the fun people I'm getting to hang with. It will also take my mind away from the fact that I, unfortunately, didn't get the job that I interviewed for this past Thursday. There were a ton of candidates and I think they probably chose someone with more experience than I had, possibly someone a bit older as well. I should find out next week what position in the list I am, but I almost don't want to be second because that'd be one of those "close but no cigar" kinda things. We have strange expressions in English, don't we? Anyhoo, I hope you enjoy my little photo sesh with Sienna dearest and the vid of her caught red-pawed. She's too cute sometimes. Enjoy!

Snuggles

Regal and kind of b**chy all at once

Sweet little pum'kin

Vrai ou faux?

True or False questions :

1) The photos in the last post are from: Avignon, Marseille, Nimes and Bordeaux.

2) Last week I fell in love with a cute, lime green, light jacket that was matched with a white shirt with pretty delicate flowers on it. Upon closer inspection, I realized it was a man's coat.

3) CCL(aka Crazy Cat Lady) came by last night at 10:30 PM to ask me to translate 2 words, one of which she already knew.

4) When helping a 6 year old student color in his bonhomme's outfit, I got told that putting red and orange together was, in fact, du n'importe quoi. Exsqueeze me? Baking Powder? Are you 6 or 16?

5) NKOTB(or New Kids on the Block for those of us in the know) is planning a reunion tour and have even recorded new music together. I think they're approximately 100 years old now, but hey, maybe they've still got it! I met Jordan Knight...when I was in college aka wayyyy after they were popular and even still a few years after he had released a single as a solo artist.

The photo quiz was kind of a bust, I think I made it too hard. But, you guys should definitely be able to figure this one out. I am sadly quite predictable. So, go for it!

On my way

Finally some good news, people! Firstly, I have at least 1 interview coming up and potentially a second. Which is at least better than no interview at all. Are my logic skills blowing your mind or what? So, that's bon. Then, my other exciting piece of information is that I now have plans for April vacances!!! FINALLY!!! I haven't travelled this year very much at all and I think it has left a big ol' negative impact on my psyche. I needs me some travellin or else I really start to get a major case of hot feet. Well, thanks to my good friend, L, who's here in Rennes with me and needed a travelling buddy and my favorite Avignon blogger, I'm set as a jet. For your viewing pleasure, here are some photos other people have taken so you can see where I'm heading. Five points to whoever can tell me which cities!

A little Vaklempt

You're probably wondering why I was a bit bothered(understatement of the century) in my last post. Well, it sort of was an accumulation of little things that finally just pushed me over the edge into feeling hurt and upset. I won't get into all of them here because, like I said, I feel a bit limited in what I can say plus it's not really my thing to talk about people on here(umm, by people I meant English-speaking people only of course...haha.) Surprisingly and I say this because I don't think it came across that way, the blogging part of it was a very minor factor, but it still added to the enormous pile that are my current annoyances.

One thing is the eternal question mark about what I'm doing next year and where I'll be, that at this point, has come to a standstill and all I can do is wait. I'm crossing my fingers to hear soon, but hearing soon just means being called in for an interview, the position is not necessarily going to be mine. I should hear within the next two weeks and obviously once I have some answers, I will fill you all in on what I'm even talking about. But, I don't want to jinx it by talking about it here especially when I could potentially not even get an interview in the first place. On verra.

Then, Roomie#1 has decided since she's moving out in 20 days: 6 hours: 30 minutes: 15 seconds(ok, so that's just an approximation, can you tell I can't wait?), she doesn't really give an F about keeping the apt orderly, being disrespectful by bringing her FB over, not doing housework, smoking in the salon and just many other unpleasantries. It's driving me up the wall, but since she's leaving soon, I don't want to be picking a fight with her all the time because I want things to end on a good note. So for now, I'll just continue to range every morning when I get up, throw her stuff in her room, leave the window wide open to air out the salon, etc so I can still get my message across albeit passive-aggressively.

The last big thing was finding out that it's 99.9% sure my best friend from home won't be coming. It looks like a big opportunity has come up at work that would last for 4 months and just happens to start the week she was going to come over. So, it looks like I've gotta plan out an alternative vacation or else I'll be bored for 10 days straight. Any ideas? I'm thinking of tagging along with a friend to Marseille and Bordeaux, but I'll need to find 1 or 2 cities in between the two because she's going to Toulouse to visit her host bro and I don't want to impose myself. So, I'm thinking of Avignon, Nimes or Montpellier, but I'll let you know once I buy the tickets for the other places and then I'll have to get recommendations from all of you southerners!

Et voila, now you know what's been getting my goat!

Blurred

Walking home during what feels like one of the longest and shortest walks of my life, the lights look like they're bouncing up and down and side-to-side with every step I take as I look at them through damp eyes. No one else exists or matters, but me and my swirling thoughts. I feel alone. I feel hurt. I miss my family. I miss my real friends. I miss a real life. I think back to the mean kids in elementary school and what I had to endure for no good reason. I bury my hands in my pockets and the scars still burn. These scars are not physical, but mental. Time does heal, but you never forget. I wonder what I did and when my time will be. I want to be appreciated for who I am and what I do. I don't deserve this. I don't. I don't. I DON'T! I've kept so much inside and I've been the bigger person. Being the bigger person doesn't always make you feel better. I want to scream and kick down the walls and say what I mean and mean what I say. But, I don't. I don't. I don't. I don't. Because I'm a coward and because I care what they think. Who cares what they think anyways? I wish I didn't. I want to stop. But, I don't. I don't. I don't. I don't.

Sidenote: This all being said, I just have to comment that my blog first started out as a place to update friends and tell a few anecdotes. Over time, as friends in real life did not seem to be reading, I felt the freedom to delve more into personal feelings that I would not necessarily share with all of my real-life friends. I have some people I know that read this blog and, unfortunately, I don't have much of a choice in that. That being said, I want to let those people know that if they wish to read my blog, fine. I have no control over that unless I were to make this private. Just as I stumbled across many interesting blogs before I decided to commit and write my own, I do not want to prevent others from having this same opportunity with my own blog. Therefore, I would greatly appreciate those of you that I know to keep MY thoughts to yourself. They are not to be shared with others in "real life" nor do I wish to talk about them with you. That's why I keep them here. In the end, it's my life and I write this all for me. Yes, I appreciate feedback and nice comments, but I write to vent, to get things out of my system. But, once they're out, it's over unless I say differently. Please keep this in mind and refrain from treating my life as you would a short story you read in the newspaper. Thank you.

Made me smile

Reason 5 bajillion 143 mazillion 579 plajillion why my mom is the bestest. I've been kinda bored recently as nothing much new seems to be going on and I, comme d'hab, have no idea what I'm doing next year or where I'll be doing whatever I'll be doing, for that matter. So, getting this package today on a rainy Rennes Wednesday really brightened my day. M&Ms, Peeps, a Marshmallow bunny, Cadbury Creme Eggs and drumroll please.....REESE'S EGGS! She knows so well my love for the Reese's Egg...the peanut butter to chocolate ratio is out of control and none of those crazy ridged edges to deal with. They're my favorites! She also included a note in the card that I am to give one Cadbury Egg to Roomie#1 and one to R#2 which is absolutely fine with me because I find them kinda tooooooo overwhelmingly sugary(even the little ones.) And she didn't include jelly beans which she used to give me in my Easter basket for the longest time, but I didn't like them so I'd just give them to my sister who loves them. I finally came out with the truth a few years ago(I also filled her in on the Conversation Hearts at Valentine's Day.) Although those I would always eat and still do eventhough I don't like them because I feel they are an integral part of Valentine's and I must make myself eat them. Strange, I know.

Yay for Easter baskets, yay for Nouvelle Star tonight and yay for hopefully finding a new roomie soon! PS-I will def fill you in soon on our casting of Nouveau Coloc 2008 and such candidats as Coloc d'amour, Baba cool, l'ours and Justin Timberlake. Just need to get myself motivated to write. In the meantime, I'll just let you drool over my Easter goodies. Ciao!

Happy Paques/ Joyeuses Easter!

Here's wishing you a Happy Easter & Joyeuses Paques! I hope the Easter Bunny/bell from Rome came and brought you tons of lovely treats!